10 Months Old

Happy 10 month birthday little man. Another one missed. We love you.

Messed Up.

My blog is acting funny and I am trying to fix the problem.

What To Do Now?

Well this adoption has turned out to be the hardest thing I have ever gone through. I have to say that if you have read Suzanne from FL's blog today that is exactly how I feel. I just have no positive feelings that this country is ever going to allow us to bring home our babies. They keep making promises only to break them at each and every turn. I love my son more than anything but I may have to face the fact that loving him from afar is all I will ever be able to do. I have decided no to an interim trip because I cannot possibly go and hold and bond with him again and maybe never see him again. I started this adoption process 3 years ago with China. We were determined we would adopt a second child after we brought Lindze home. We started one year from the date that Lindze got home not knowing what we would go through for 3 stinking years. My new dilemma is that Kyrgyzstan is a concurrent adoption and China is now in March of 2006 with referrals and we are logged in at the end of April. What do I do? Give up China and hope that Little Man will one day be allowed to come home or wait a little longer and then decide. We only have a few months to decide because we would need to update everything with China. China has been the slowest I have ever seen but at least by golly I know I will have a child to bring home. Little Man's country does not even know what they are doing and they don't give a rats tail about those kids. If they did we would all have our babies home by now. I obsess about this everyday and I am driving my family nuts. Something is going to have to give soon.

Four Years

Today is "Gotcha Day" or "Adoption Day"! I know people call it different things but it has been 4 years ago today since Tom and I stood in a little room with 8 other families in China and had Lindze placed in our arms for the first time. It was a day that I will always remember. The day we became a forever family. Lindze had this complete look of shock on her face. She never cried not once the whole time we were in that social welfare building. It took a lot for us to hold it together because it had been such a long journey for us to get to that day. I will never forget that day and I want to thank God for the blessing that he bestowed on us 4 years ago. I also have to thank Lindze's birth country China for allowing us to bring home one of their precious children. And of course I will never forget her birth mother who made such a sacrifice in order for that day to happen for us. Happy Adoption Day Lindze. We love you!!

Happy Nine Month Birthday

Just wanted to wish Little Man a happy nine month birthday. Hoping for good news of some kind this week. Hate that we have missed so much of your life so far but promise to make it up to you when you come home. Love you and miss you so much.
Your sister says to come home soon! Love you baby!!!!!

My Girl

A couple of photos of Lindze on her 5th birthday. I miss Little Man so much but she sure keeps me going these days. She had a great time at Build A Bear. She named her bear "Heart" and is now sleeping with her at night. She had such a good birthday. Well hoping and praying for some kind of good news this week but I am sure having my doubts.

Happy Birthday Lindze!!

Today is my sweet Lindze's 5th birthday. We have had a great day so far and in just a few we are headed to Build A Bear in order to have fun with her little friend S. I think of her birthmother on this day and the sacrifice she made 5 years ago. What was going through her mind when she had to leave her baby with complete strangers and just hope that she was taken care of? I just wish I could tell her that Lindze has turned out to be such the perfect little girl and that she is being taken care of. She is loved by us and all who meet her. We have complete strangers come up to us and tell us what a sweet girl she is. I just wish I could tell her birthmother all of this and what this child has brought to our lives. She came into our lives when she was 4 years and 2 weeks old and that day was one of the best days of our life. I thank her birthmom and God for her everyday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY LINDZE!!!!!!!!