Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Long Time and Decisions

So I'm a bad blogger I know. I am putting this out here because I need to put it somewhere. Our boy is still in Kyrgyzstan and the sweet person who was going to try to adopt him is unable to now. I have spoken with Jackie and told her I am realistic in my expectations of Kyrgyzstan and I know there is a chance that they will never reopen adoptions in that country or it may be years before they do. Anyway right now he has no one fighting to bring him home and he is there with no clue that someone here loves him so much. So we have decided to enter back into the program and try to get him home to the mom and dad who never forgot him. Jackie said since nothing has happened in the year since we left it is just a matter of updating paperwork which we are not going to do until we see a sign that something is going to happen.
The difference between a year ago and today is when Gabe, our sweet miracle, came home, he came to us when things were so desolate because fighting for Alek was just too much mentally and physically and was seriously taking its toll on me. Now I am the happiest because I feel like things in my family are complete. We have our boy and our girl and I could not be happier but then I think that yes things are great but wow wouldn't things be even greater if we could be blessed with Alek in our home as well. I have missed him so much and thought of him often in the past year. I never have stopped loving him. I held him when he was 3 months old and I still remember him holding my finger and looking at me.
So there you go... We are back in it and we have no expectations because expectations bring forth pain so we will ride this roller coaster and pray everyday that he stays safe and that this country will develop a heart enough to do something soon.

5 comments:

Ann said...

Wooohooo!!!! I have chills reading your entry. I must admit even though you were not officially waiting I never considered you not a waiting family.. Odd huh?

Jeanne said...

Your love for Alek is an inspiration.

Corinne said...

What a wonderful heart and dedication . What a wonderful gift to Alek just to know he is loved by his family even from afar. I know miracles do happen even when we have to wait for them.I often think of the precious children waiting to be reunited with their families. My prayers never cease for all of you waiting.

Betsy said...

I know this decision must have taken great courage, Christina. We will continue to pray for Alek and for you & Tom as you jump back on the rollercoaster.

Teresa Edwards said...

In the last set of photos from Tokmok, Alek/Manas was dressed in pink. He looks good in pink! When he comes home, I will buy him a pink Izod polo shirt. The cutest boy at my high school wore one, and all the girls would swoon. They will swoon over Alek too!