Long Time and Decisions

So I'm a bad blogger I know. I am putting this out here because I need to put it somewhere. Our boy is still in Kyrgyzstan and the sweet person who was going to try to adopt him is unable to now. I have spoken with Jackie and told her I am realistic in my expectations of Kyrgyzstan and I know there is a chance that they will never reopen adoptions in that country or it may be years before they do. Anyway right now he has no one fighting to bring him home and he is there with no clue that someone here loves him so much. So we have decided to enter back into the program and try to get him home to the mom and dad who never forgot him. Jackie said since nothing has happened in the year since we left it is just a matter of updating paperwork which we are not going to do until we see a sign that something is going to happen.
The difference between a year ago and today is when Gabe, our sweet miracle, came home, he came to us when things were so desolate because fighting for Alek was just too much mentally and physically and was seriously taking its toll on me. Now I am the happiest because I feel like things in my family are complete. We have our boy and our girl and I could not be happier but then I think that yes things are great but wow wouldn't things be even greater if we could be blessed with Alek in our home as well. I have missed him so much and thought of him often in the past year. I never have stopped loving him. I held him when he was 3 months old and I still remember him holding my finger and looking at me.
So there you go... We are back in it and we have no expectations because expectations bring forth pain so we will ride this roller coaster and pray everyday that he stays safe and that this country will develop a heart enough to do something soon.

Gabriel is ONE!!!!!!

Okay first I am a bad blogger:( Second HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my sweet son Gabriel. Mommy, daddy and sister love you and wish you many many more birthdays. It is unbelievable how far this little one has come. I was looking at pictures of him when we brought him home and he was so tiny but now oh my he is such a big boy. I can tell he is going to give me a run for my money as he is into EVERYTHING. He is trying to walk but is not there yet. He says all kinds of words but his favorite is dada. He gives us kisses, high fives anyone and blows kisses. He tends to be a happy baby but mommy sort of spoiled him so he likes to be held and if you don't pick him up, prepare for a fit. He now has 3 teeth, 2 on the bottom and one on the top. He LOVES his sister and she loves him and they have bonded so well as brother and sister. We could not imagine our life without him. We are having a birthday party tomorrow and hopefully I'll get around to posting pictures. Anyway Love to my boy and big kisses from mom and dad.

Happy Mothers Day!

Just wanted to wish everyone a Happy Mothers Day. This includes all of my friends who are still waiting on their kids from Kyrgyzstan. You guys are all mothers. They are your kids so this mothers day is yours too. I know that it will be hard to celebrate but I just want you to know that I am thinking of you guys. Also Happy Mothers Day to my dear sweet virtual friend Lori. This is your day too and I am sending a huge hug to you. Love to you all!

Happy Birthday Alek Manas!

Just wanted to wish our dear sweet Alek a Happy Birthday. He turns 2 years old today. I hope and pray that someone in the Tokmok orphanage remembered his special day and gave him a birthday hug and kiss. Even though we gave up the fight I never forget about him. He is a little constant in the back of my mind and I wonder how he is doing basically everyday. I look at Gabriel and think wow I could right now have a 6 year old daughter, a 2 year old son and a 10 month old son. I look at Gabriel and think oh how your big brother would have loved to be playing with you right now. I know that is not to be but I think about it more than I should. Anyway I love my little Alek and he will always have a very special place in my heart. HAPPY BIRTHDAY sweet sweet Alek!! We love you!

Day of Celebration

Today we finalized the adoption of Gabriel. We had to wait 6 months in order to do so but it is done so now as our lawyer said "he is ours forever". I love that word forever especially when it comes to my babies. We also finally re-adopted Lindze after 5 years. The only reason we had waited so long was we had wanted to do it when we brought home our child from China or Kyrgyzstan. We asked our lawyer about it this Monday and he said it would be simple and that we could re-adopt her when we were finalizing Gabriel's adoption. We were so excited to do both of them on the same day. I told Lindze that this was her and her brothers day. We were able to do everything in the judges chambers where Lindze gave him a big old hug and the bailiff gave Lindze a little stuffed animal. I felt like my heart was going to explode when the judge signed both of the documents and said they were ours. We then went and did some paperwork and went out for a celebration meal. I also have to brag that Gabriel was on his best behavior all day. He is teething so that came as a surprise. Anyway life is great as far as I am concerned and I could not be any happier. Happy Adoption Day to my babies!!

Many Thanks!!

Well we have been home for a few hours and Gabriel has had some good moments and some bad moments. I have to say I like Vandy Children's Hospital. They told us everything they were doing and were going to do to our sweet boy. They let us be with him up until the anesthesiologist carried him in his arms to the OR. They said the "ouchies" go in after the gas mask puts him to sleep to reduce the tears for us and him. When he woke up in recovery we were called back instantly and I got to give him a juice bottle because Gabe is use to eating quite a bit during the day. He was extremely fussy and cried most of the time he was in there even after a nurse tried dancing to make him happy. We all guessed it was the gas from the laparoscopy because they gave him a block that would last around 6 hours so we knew the incisions could not be hurting yet. Anyway both of the boys were up in his belly so they only did one side this time and Lord help us we have to do this again in 6 months. He has 4 different incisions and he is just pitiful and momma hates to see him hurt. We gave him Lortab earlier and it seems to have helped. All in all that is our day. Right now he is in a boppy in my lap sleeping. I am praying for a good night but am preparing for the worse. I appreciate all the kind comments and prayers that went up for Gabe today. Continue to keep him in your thoughts as his little body recovers. You guys are the greatest.

Prayers

I don't post very often these days but just wanted to ask all of my blogger buddies to say an extra prayer tomorrow. My little Gabriel is having surgery Wednesday. We have known since last year that he was going to have to but now that it is upon us I just want all the prayers we can get for him. It is a little boy surgery but a little more extensive because he will be having a laparoscopy and he just seems too little for such procedure but if we wait later in life he could be at risk for cancer. So anyway keep my boy in your thoughts and prayers tomorrow. I will update you on how he is doing when he allows me to use the computer. Thanks!!