Well today has been a day of bad news with our adoptions. First we find out that they are not even going to look at adoptions in K until after the election and then it may be October before anything happens (if it ever does). I just feel this is another one of their excuses to continue the delays that have been ongoing since last year. I just have a really hard time staying positive that this will ever end.
Second I also found out today through another agency that China is not going to send out any more referrals until September due to I guess the swine flu. We have waited 3 years for them now and it looks like we have at least another year ahead of us. I am just a little bit over this.
Anyway I was talking to Lindze (my 5 year old) tonight about how it was going to be a long time before brother or even sister ever comes home. I told her I was just about ready to give up because I just don't have it in me to deal with this much longer. My 5 year blessing tells me "you didn't give up on me" and then she gave me a big ole hug. I cannot tell you how it felt to have my baby girl tell me that. She has faith so I guess I will have to have faith that something is going to have to happen one of these days. I guess I am going to leave it up to God to help me see this through to the end no matter how it ends.