Happy Anniversary

Today Tom and I celebrate our 11th wedding anniversary. Of course we are both working nights so we will have to celebrate it next week sometime. He is a great husband and really puts up with a lot especially the last year with our K. adoption. I also want to wish Tom a happy birthday. Yes we got married on his birthday and it is a long story why but we did. I love you Tom and hope to spend forever with you.

Day of Disappointment

Well today has been a day of bad news with our adoptions. First we find out that they are not even going to look at adoptions in K until after the election and then it may be October before anything happens (if it ever does). I just feel this is another one of their excuses to continue the delays that have been ongoing since last year. I just have a really hard time staying positive that this will ever end.
Second I also found out today through another agency that China is not going to send out any more referrals until September due to I guess the swine flu. We have waited 3 years for them now and it looks like we have at least another year ahead of us. I am just a little bit over this.
Anyway I was talking to Lindze (my 5 year old) tonight about how it was going to be a long time before brother or even sister ever comes home. I told her I was just about ready to give up because I just don't have it in me to deal with this much longer. My 5 year blessing tells me "you didn't give up on me" and then she gave me a big ole hug. I cannot tell you how it felt to have my baby girl tell me that. She has faith so I guess I will have to have faith that something is going to have to happen one of these days. I guess I am going to leave it up to God to help me see this through to the end no matter how it ends.

Too Cute

I have a best friend who is the most thoughtful person in the world. She was sweet enough to check on me at work when Little Man turned one. She also bought me the cutest picture frames with the words Little Man actually on it. I cannot wait to get him home in order to put a special picture in it. Thank you Heather for always being there for me.

Happy Birthday!!!

Happy 1st birthday to my sweet little man. Mommy and daddy miss you and wish we could have given you a very special birthday. The pictures we received this week from T were the best yet. You had the best smile I have ever seen. I am sorry you are still there and not home where you should have been months ago. We miss you with all of our hearts and we will make up all of the lost time when you come home. Mommy just wants you to keep holding on and know we are coming for you one day no matter how long they make us wait. We love you, we miss you and we pray for our baby boy. Loves and kisses from afar!!!!

Prayers

Nothing new on the adoption front. The phone conference yielded no new news today and for that I am very frustrated. I miss my little boy and think about every milestone I am missing as he is getting ready to turn 1 in less than 2 weeks. I promised him in July that Mommy would be back soon to bring him home and that has not happened. He is very healthy according to all of the reports that I get and for that I feel blessed. I just miss him and I refuse to give up on him. I know that one of these days he will be coming home.
I ask for prayers as a dear friend of mine has a child who is not doing well. She has not held or seen her baby girl for several months. All she gets are reports and the occasional picture of her sweet girl. I feel for her, I pray for her and I cry for her. That is all that I can do at this point. If things had been different she would be home and gotten the medical care she so desperately needed. Please just keep this precious baby and her family in your prayers.

11 Months Old

Happy 11 month birthday to my sweet little man. We miss you so much and want you home so bad. Your pictures that we received last week were adorable. I just loved the way you smiled for the camera.
Well another month has passed and we know nothing as to when he will be home or if he will ever be home. Tom and I have separated ourselves completely from the situation lately. This adoption has consumed so much of our life lately that we just had to step back and focus on our life now with Lindze. We are still discussing what we will do if this country decides to stop adoptions. I e-mailed J. recently about this possibly happening and for the first time since we started this process she did not try to defend them and say that adoptions would not stop. Rumor has it that we will hear more regarding the future of adoptions some time next week after a big meeting. J. is out of town for a while so we will not hear any news from her until she comes back. I just want to know "yes or no" so Tom and I can deal with it and we don't have to keep up this "wait until this or wait until that" that we have dealt with for the last long 6 months.
Happy Birthday again Little Man. Mommy, daddy and sister love and miss you!!

10 Months Old

Happy 10 month birthday little man. Another one missed. We love you.