Happy 4 Month Birthday Little Man

Not much to report. Just want to say happy 4 month birthday to my sweet Little Man. Love you and miss you and hope to see you very soon!!!!!

New Pictures Today

Got new pictures today of Little Man. Thanks a bunch goes out to Cheri and John who are visiting their little boy for the first time. Cheri said Bakyt our facilitator took the pictures and let me tell you he is no photographer so some of the pictures are kind of blurry. The ones with John holding him look pretty good. He just looks so sad in the pictures that it just broke my heart when I saw him. I miss his little smile and his beautiful little dimple and I saw none of that in these pictures. I wonder everyday how often he is getting held or even given any attention. I just want to get on a plane now and go and pick him up and tell him how much his mommy and daddy love him and miss him and want to bring him home. One positive note is Cheri has said that he seems very healthy so that is a small comfort that he is still thriving while living in the orphanage.
We are still not being given a definite date as to when we will be returning to bring him home. Jackie has said that the embassy for some reason is still holding our dossier so they seem to be one of our major hold ups. I figure no one is hearing anything from the Kyrgyzstan side of things and I know there are a ton of us waiting to go back for our pick up trip. It seems everybody in Kyrgyzstan likes to take tons of time off at the same time so nothing gets done which is such a downer because there are all of these beautiful babies on the other side of the world who are just waiting for "government figures" to come back and do their job so these kids can be brought home. I am just so frustrated at the whole situation. I will just keep on praying that something will progress so we and all of the other families can go back.

Nothing New

We are still in the waiting stage for when we will travel back to pick up Little Man. I have been told that the end of October is more likely our return travel time but that of course is not set in stone. I am very excited because Cheri and her husband are traveling at the end of this week and they are going to get us more pictures of him. He turns 4 months on the 26th and I so miss him. I have sent him a care package of winter clothes because we will not be there until after the change of weather. My agency is also hoping to get some updated pictures of him. I wonder how much he has grown in the last 3 weeks. I hope that the nannies are putting him in his 3-6 month outfits instead of stuffing him into his 0-3 month outfits. I so wanted to take a pair of scissors and cut the feet out of his pj's while we were there so he could actually stretch out.
The baby shower was fun this past weekend. He got several outfits, bibs and blankets. We are will probably have to take several back because they are shortsleeved and by the time he gets home he will not need summer clothes. He got his little baby einstein activity jumper and my 8 month old nephew broke it in for him quite well. Apparently while his mom was setting up for the shower they put him in it and he had a little accident in it. I was far from upset. I thought it was pretty funny because you would have to meet sweet little Gavin. We have decided when Little Man comes home, the 2 of them are going to be into everything considering how close in age they are. Anyway it was great to see family that I don't get to see very often and it was all set up so nicely. I have a picture of the cake that they got. It was so creative.

Waiting and Waiting

I have realized in the last few months that I am a very impatient person. I do not like to wait for anything. Hey, I have been waiting for our little Zoey from China for the past 2.5 years but waiting for Little Man for the past 3 months with I guess another 3 months to go has made me a very impatient person. I guess I am going to have to take a deep breath and just chill out. It is out of my hands at this point.
One really good thing I have to look forward to is that Cheri another PAP from my agency is going to visit her little boy next week so I am going to get updated pictures of little man. She is also going to take him some diapers for me. I sent her a care package today with winter outfits in it because I don't think we will be traveling until November so I wanted him to have some warm clothes. I cannot thank her enough for this. We carried a care package to her little boy in July. It is great to have other PAP who are so willing to help each other and be there for each other when we are having a crummy day.
My sister in laws thought I would potentially be going back to Kyrgyzstan in September as I was originally told might happen so they have planned a baby shower this weekend. They are so sweet to go to all of the trouble especially since I have to work both Sat and Sun nights so they are planning around my sleep schedule. They have assured me that it is going to be short and sweet as I can make it to work on time. I'll update later on on how it goes. We still have items from when Lindze was little but she came home at 1 year old so I am finding that I need items for little babies and of course for little boys. Our house right now is pink with tons of baby dolls. I think that Lindze has decided that her new little baby doll will be her brother. Poor little man!
Hopefully next time I update I will have better news other than no news regarding going back to get little man. As of now our dossier appears to still be somewhere at the embassy. I have heard that some families have gone to court and will be traveling in October to bring their sweet babies home. Congratulations to all of them!!!!

"When are we going back?"

That has been the question of the day since we have been home. My original response was hopefully soon. With all the changes in Kyrgyzstan such as a new committee forming to look at dossiers and some new passport timeline, my new response is hopefully before Christmas. I figure that is the most pessimistic timeline but considering when we started our China process the wait was 12 months and we have now been waiting 2.5 years I might as well look at the dark side and not the bright side with this adoption too. It just rips a hole in me knowing Little Man is going to have to spend more months living in an orphanage instead of thriving with a family that loves and misses him so much. I cannot imagine how some of the other families who have been waiting months to bring their child home feels. I figure the only way to get through this wait is to put our trust in God and pray that with his guidance all of our babies will be coming home to us soon.
On a positive note some families returned earlier this week from Kyrgyzstan with their babies. Can't wait until they start posting pictures of their new arrivals. Also hoping and praying that a friend of mine went to court today and can hopefully be traveling in a couple of months.
Well insomnia has become my way of life since we have been home. I keep wondering if it is from the trip or from working night shift but my new wake up time is 2-3 AM and let me tell you there is nothing on TV at that time. The only good thing about it is I never get tired at work anymore. Hopefully my internal clock will straighten itself out soon so I can actually sleep when the sun is down but until then I guess I will have to function on about 3-4 hours of sleep.
Off to do clothes, cook supper and get ready for work.